Crois-moi

June 26, 2008

terpsichorean

Filed under: Voyages — Kat @ 4:56 am

FIRST HOURS IN MOROCCO, a flashback:

Long line at the border, two Canadian girls eating pita on the train from Casa airport to Casa Voyageurs. My sheepish French and ears straining to understand the Arabic around me (nope).

I had to switch trains in Casablanca, where ticket lines were long and I witnessed and, somehow, was included in a little quarrel between an official and a bunch of heckling ladies who were complaining that not enough ticket booths were open. One of the ladies offered to accompany me to the right train, patting me on the arm and smiling like a doting grandma, but when I bought my ticket the man in the booth said, “C’est celui-la, dépêchez-vous.” I turned, scared, imagining the train leaving while I helped my little old lady to the platform; waiting for hours for the next one; falling asleep in the interval and having all of my stuff stolen; taking a late train to Fes with nothing but my passport and the clothes on my back; wandering a deserted, sleeping, unfamiliar, unsavory train station neighborhood; being forced to hole up in a dingy, stinky hotel… But as I swung around, panicked, my little old lady was capering off through the crowd and leaping onto the train, with just one backward glance and “hurry up” gesture to encourage me. I just made it.

Through the train’s windows, everything is bright light and bright colors. Flowers, dust, apartment buildings, sky. Ladies wrapped from head to toe and carrying things down a path through the dusty fields, their clothes fluttering.

A woman in my compartment has farted loudly a few times with no reaction from anyone. Her husband has spent the whole trip talking on his cell phone and working on the first Arabic crossword I’ve ever seen.

Trash, skinny livestock. People just sitting out in the middle of the scrub. These well-dressed young Moroccan men intrigue me. I want to talk to the girl next to me; I tried; I asked a stupid question. Out the window, nothing but coastline, but I whispered, “Nous sommes près de la mer ici?” She gave me an indulgent smile.

Fig trees, lemons, oranges. So many satellite dishes! Everybody has a bottle of water. Now is the time for me to put my confidence in action, to remember to say “b’s’laaama” when I leave, despite my nervousness and wibbly accent. It took me a long time to resolve to eat my apple earlier because I wasn’t sure whether it would be appropriate to eat it without sharing. I just stood in the corridor and chomped it by myself.

The well-dressed young Moroccan’s name is Jamal, and the nice-looking girl next to me is Amina. We finally started talking to each other after a pack of boys at one of the stops threw rocks at our train, surprising us all. They both gave me their phone numbers and invited me to meet their families. Jamal helped me find a good hotel and left me with his good wishes. Such nice ambassadors of their country, such a nice first day in this place that feels very foreign, but thanks to them, very welcoming.

June 24, 2008

Filed under: Voyages — Kat @ 9:46 am

Ana fil Maghreb, little duckies.

I’m here, I made it, I’m struggling with my limited vocabulary and sweating out my bottled water just as fast as I can buy it!

My classes here are great. The first day I was here, I was too dazzled by everything to string two Arabic words together, and yesterday I worked some Arabic into my French, but today I’ve just started pretending not to understand any English or French people throw at me. I’ve only found a couple of other students here who are making an effort to speak Arabic to each other, but that’s probably because it’s tough to say much before your fourth or fifth semester… even so, that’s what I came all this way for, so I’m just gonna set my frustration aside and DO IT.

One big plus is my host family. I have a host sister, Umaima, who is twelve, and two host brothers, Amin and Hamid. There is another brother, Mehdi, but he lives in Marrakech and it is unlikely that I will meet him. Then there’s the dad (whose name I don’t know), the grandmother (who roasts a delicious chicken), three little birdies, and Aris.

Who’s Aris? This is the little mischief-maker himself (puppy lovers in my life, this is for you):

June 19, 2008

clip

Filed under: Voyages — Kat @ 6:52 am

Me oh my, I am all a-flutter right now.

THE TIME I’VE SPENT

thinking about my pack

organizing transport

repeating simple Arabic phrases in my head (”Olympic hotel, please”)

cramming things into suitcases and boxes

singing that new NKOTB song to myself

…it’s got me all riled up. I keep going to bed at 1, setting my alarm for 7, and restlessly rising at 6:30. I’ve got to get on with all of this, get it all done and out of the way so I can crash into that first Moroccan bed and be out, like a light.

The intervening time has all been fantastic, too, if you exclude Stew’s departure and my general overcharged nervous excitement: a few last hurrahs, some choice words that I needed to hear from my own mouth, etc. This year was better than we gave it credit for having been. Our little bulle anglophone, our Spades games and beers at the Saint of Breasts or the Filochard, our road trips. I wish that good feeling could go on forever (Stew, Sophie, Summer, Heather, that’s your cue).

But I know this routine. This is the pack-out, the onward and upward. As always, it’s hard to imagine saying goodbye and not counting on the same people from day to day, but everyone’s ready.

My life is mine, now!

June 15, 2008

citrouille

Filed under: Uncategorized — Kat @ 5:21 pm

This is one of those times where everything gets churned up. It occurred to me today that I’m LEAVING FRANCE in a week. I think the thought happened while I was bent-over sleeping with my head on my purse on a train to Tarbes. Or it happened when I lifted my head and my eyes opened and surprise!, there were the Pyrenees.

Churned up because the chances that put me on that train were slim, and I have been talking straight with EVERYONE lately, and three days are left of life as I have made it comfortable…

So today I got off the train and then I was sitting in this person’s living room while he talked about the battle he parachuted into in 1954, and the people he was talking to were all eyes and ears but they spoke no French and he spoke no English, so the words from my mouth were the ones that helped them understand each other. A lot of things were shared, and it reinforced something for me. I LOVE THIS WORK.

It’s probably not a coincidence that two people in three days have told me that “the universe gives you just what you need and nothing more.”

It’s difficult, really difficult, to set out on my own again. I’m stripping my life down to me and the pursuit of what I want. Sophie calls it following the enthusiasm. Good, improbable things have started happening since I decided to follow my enthusiasm, so I guess that’s the ‘what I need.’

But I don’t think it’s the universe giving me a fresh burst of energy. I think that being honest with myself about how I feel and what I want is what is showing me how to find what I need, and nothing more.

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